I always want to have a life just like the books I read. I always spent most of my time reading novels because it was my way to hide from the world and enter a life that I always wanted. I always crave the relationship from the novels the bad or the good.
Now my dream is coming true but I dont know how to handle the pain,
The what if something goes wrong.I use to make fun of the characters from novels , how they overthinking and jealous.
I'm worse it's like im transforming to this person I barely even know, my insecurity level scare me, I even started to think im not pretty enough or not thin enough.it's like im back in time when I thought the only way to get attention is to show my figure but now I'm worse.
When you insecure, you dont feel beautiful.
When you dont feel beautiful, you feel depress.
When you feel depress, you becomin this stranger nobody recognize; not even yourself.
Its hard to keep loving yourself when you feel soo down, the only thing in your heart is pain & insecurity .
someone once said "different people bring different side out of you" which is accurate.
His ruin me piece by piece
He brought the worse out of me
His like a drug, you know its not good for you but you still take it soo you can feel relieve.
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